Random thoughts III

Sez wrote:

I'm on tablets for it, it feels like something's stuck in your throat and that...

It's all part of my anxiety and depression that I have atm

I'm so sorry!
How long have you been dealing with that?
I've been dealing with depression for the last 4 years, and this last summer I finally got myself to therapy, and they put me on medication, which is helping.
Hope it's helping you too!

Mike` wrote:

Gold star on my hand, below my thumb. When I'm holding a pen you'll only be able to see the top half of it, it'll be like an inch wide by an inch tall.

Aah, yeah, you mentioned that before. I clearly have the memory span of a goldfish
I'm sure it'll look awesome! And a tattoo there won't hurt much more than getting a small scratch. I've taken several tattoo's, and the one of my finger was a piece of cake

Also, joining in on the Mike lovin'

MissLilly wrote:

Mike` wrote:

Gold star on my hand, below my thumb. When I'm holding a pen you'll only be able to see the top half of it, it'll be like an inch wide by an inch tall.

Aah, yeah, you mentioned that before. I clearly have the memory span of a goldfish
I'm sure it'll look awesome! And a tattoo there won't hurt much more than getting a small scratch. I've taken several tattoo's, and the one of my finger was a piece of cake

Also, joining in on the Mike lovin'

Yeah, I think that's the spot that'll probably hurt least. Mostly it's just super small so by the time the pain gets to be too much it'll be over.

AND YAY FOR ME LOVIN!!

Fuck my life! Oh god I'm in so much pain right now! Fucking kidney stone!

MissLilly wrote:

Sez wrote:

I'm on tablets for it, it feels like something's stuck in your throat and that...

It's all part of my anxiety and depression that I have atm

I'm so sorry!
How long have you been dealing with that?
I've been dealing with depression for the last 4 years, and this last summer I finally got myself to therapy, and they put me on medication, which is helping.
Hope it's helping you too!

2 months now...I'm medication too but I refused to take them. I like to deal with natural way
I go to therapy too very soon.

I'm a health worrier I keep thinking I'm dying plus I live like a slave at home which doesn't help.

Jugz da' Clown wrote:

Fuck my life! Oh god I'm in so much pain right now! Fucking kidney stone!

Drink lots and lots of water!

Sending healing thoughts your way, and hope it goes away soon!

Sez wrote:

2 months now...I'm medication too but I refused to take them. I like to deal with natural way
I go to therapy too very soon.

I'm a health worrier I keep thinking I'm dying plus I live like a slave at home which doesn't help.

If you can deal with it the natural way, that's good. But don't be too stubborn.
I was, and that's why it took so long for me to get any help at all, because I thought if I was just left to my own devices for a little while, I could beat this shit. But I couldn't. And I spent 6 months in therapy before they got me to agree to medication. I'm the kind of person who won't even take a painkiller unless I feel like I am about to die from pain. I had a whole session with the doctor to explain my worries about medication, and that I didn't want anything that can make me addicted. And that if I wanted to quit, I could quit without getting sick from it.
I was also afraid I'd turn into a zombie, or that I wouldn't be me any more. But it really wasn't that bad at all. And it does help.

I don't know much about anxiety though, but I understand it's awful. It's very good you're getting help so soon.
If you ever feel the need to talk about it!

Thank god I have prescription painkillers on hand and I just took two. I'm starting to feel a little better, though a little loopy. I hope I can keep them down though. I feel like I might throw up.

Tuning in again have been a bit preoccupied for obvious reasons

Love the tattoo idea, mike.
I've been dallying with the idea of getting a tattoo for some time, too but I'll wait for another few years and see if it's still something I really want to have done then.
I'd preferably have a quote from one of my favourite books the little prince, or maybe the star that is printed on the very last page. But I'm a chicken and probably won't dare to do it.

Really looking forward to seeing the Rocky Horror Show next Sunday and going in the recording studio the weekend after that - sticking to the positive things right now

Glad you checked in, Dina. I hope you are feeling better and have positive things to focus on. And of course, you can talk to us.

I'm glad you're having positives to look forward to Dina
And as Isa says, we're always here if you want to talk!

On another note, I'm hit with headache again. Around the top of my head and behind the eyes.
I've never in my life been bothered with much headache at all, so why now? I'm hating it!

I really feeling a lot better today, since I managed to get some sleep after a very disturbing night.
Also crying helps and having people that are there - not only you guys but of course also my family and my very dear friends, especially my best friend who held me for quite some time after I broke down sobbing at the beginning of the band rehearsal yesterday.
And he said: "I don't have very important or great words, but I have two ears with which I can listen and a shoulder that you can always lean on. No more and no less I can offer you." Is he amazing or what?

So this time I'll be grieving the healthy way: cry when I feel like crying and not swallowing everything.
I used to have quite some problems with showing emotions or weaknesses (still do if I'm honest) but I'm working on it with said friend.

Luckily I have a lot of things I can distract myself with atm, of course the funeral will be very hard but I'm optimistic that soon when I'll be thinking about him, that I'll feel admiration for a very strong person, who fought against all odds until the very end, instead of despair.

Now, enough of my pathetic and depressing life
@ MissLilly do you get enough sleep? I get really bad headaches when I don't sleep well

Looks like everyone is sick or ill
I'm worried about you guys

That's a good friend, Dina. I'm glad you have nice people in RL who can help you. And I think coming here and writing about this stuff helps too. It's very therapeutic, even if we don't have much to say. Just writing it down already helps. I think that works for all of us. So I'm glad we have here to talk to each other and everything.

Just wanted to add, that you are all awesome people.

eli_ wrote:

Looks like everyone is sick or ill
I'm worried about you guys

Or depressed. I'm worried too.

That sounds like a really good friend Dina!
So often friends tend to disappear in grieving periods because they don't know how to deal with it. I lost some friends that way when my mother died. They didn't know how to deal with me in my sorrow. When really, one doesn't need much at all, other than them being there. Words aren't really neccessary at all.
So yeah, your friend is quite amazing

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I've been sleeping quite a lot actually. So I don't think it's that. It may be the changing weather though
Got some fresh air in here and some water. Hoping it helps.

MissLilly wrote:

That sounds like a really good friend Dina!
So often friends tend to disappear in grieving periods because they don't know how to deal with it. I lost some friends that way when my mother died. They didn't know how to deal with me in my sorrow. When really, one doesn't need much at all, other than them being there. Words aren't really neccessary at all.
So yeah, your friend is quite amazing

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I've been sleeping quite a lot actually. So I don't think it's that. It may be the changing weather though
Got some fresh air in here and some water. Hoping it helps.

Yes, exactly! I have experienced that, too in the past and it's like... I don't need much, just show me you care every once in a while. Ask me how I am, because I'm not really the person who comes to you and is like "I'm so sad, please hold me!"
That's why I'm really, really thankful that I have somebody like him in my life who helped me to open up and be honest to him but also myself.

I didn't find my coffee. I'm kind of bummed. I'll have to order them online I guess.

I found a site to make my purr-fect k-cup pack. This could be fun!!

I'm really glad you have such a friend Dina. We should all have, and be, friends like that.

Isabela wrote:

eli_ wrote:

Looks like everyone is sick or ill
I'm worried about you guys

Or depressed. I'm worried too.

I can't speak for everyone, but no need to worry about me

Good friends are important and I'm glad you have one Dina!!

We have this:



and this:


machine in our kitchen, and also a normal coffee brewer. We always look like total coffe-addicts but people don't realize that you can do so much more than just coffee with these machines... yum

Edit: also no need to worry about me. I have my ups and downs and the moment but I guess you can understand that
I'm not depressed I'm just grieving but I'll be fine again, so no worries about me please

Those coffee makers look amazing!!!

Oh good, guys. I'm also not depressed, btw. I had to deal with some bad things lately, but I'm feeling much better now and there are somethings to look forward, and I'm excited. I'm thinking 2012 will be a very good year.

Oh, I want coffee maker too! Is that a Dolce Gusto, Dina? Is it good? I'm considering buying that one.

yup It's a Dolce Gusto.
I love it, I use nothing else anymore tbh, so I can definitely recommend it!

My grandma has thin one, it's pretty cool! Coffee tastes so good

No need to worry about me, promise. I just need to get things out at times. Being candid and having accountability for things is my therapy.